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Friday, 12 December 2008

Way back home …

This is where my life begins, or at least in the eyes of others it is. I am 30 years old, I loved and lost... But this only I know… as people usually assumes I am successful women with lonely life... I have no friends no family… only thing I have is myself and just a little bit of hope… a hope to get back home. My only problem is I don’t know where it is or whether it existed. I just only know all I want is go home… for almost 2 decades I try to figure out what’s in my heart, how I feel, but have never been successful. My only magic is I can tell what’s in other person’s heart and mind by hearing and looking at their face... They say your eyes and your face is the door to your soul… trust me I believe that. And that’s where my life starts.
There have been many times I have think of my childhood and it always brings tears in my eyes. With experience of time I made a deal with my heart that it’s best not to open the books of my past. It’s a blessing that no one but I know my past. May be this is because I eloped and came and started living here where no one knew who I was except my name. My name is Shine Michaels and no one knows what I came here for... only that I came here a decade and little more years before as university student. I ended up being one of the best psychology student oxford ever saw. And that was when the morning star of my career shined. People tell me all the time I am one of the best psychologist, best counselor, and there is nothing I have no solution for. I always found a way out for them. But it’s amazing what people don’t know about that here I am 30 yrs old and still can’t solve riddle of my hearts and my thoughts, can’t put words in my feeling. And still haven’t found my alleyway out.
Today I won this amazing award”BEST PSYCHOLOGIST AWARD “of the year. And I went up the stage to say few words, and when I went up there the only thing I could manage was a thank you. By looking at the crowd and lights flashing in to my eyes... Slowly I saw my past memories flushing back in my mind. As it was happening at that same jiffy, my entire life stood in front of me… it felt like my entire life passed within those few seconds. Only thing I could do was stoop my head take a heavy breath and say thanking you and then find a way out of the crowd, where I can stand with my thoughts and feelings.

Thursday, 4 December 2008


It gives me pain,
When I recall the good old days,
The times when I use to sit on his lap,
And play in the rain,

I remember all those days,
When he use to feed me,
And took me on the shoulder,
Showed me the heaven in earth,

I still remember his nap,
From which he never got up,
And took all my happiness away,

I wish I was gone with him,
‘Coz he is the only one I had,
But now he is my only sweet memories

Copyright© 03rd April 1998 Mariyam Nina Ali

Remember I’m always there…

If you ever need someone to talk to,
Remember that I am always there for you
If you ever get into trouble,
Come to me and I’ll give you a warm cuddle,

If you are sad and wearing a frown on your face,
I will give you my smile instead in its place,
If you are hurt and your heart is torn apart,
I will give you my affection and mend
you’re broken your heart,

If you are exhausted and about to fall,
I’ll give you my hand and remind you
this is a friendship after all,

Whatever you need, whenever it may be,
I assure you that you can always depend upon me…

Copyright© 10th October 1998 Mariyam Nina Ali

Monday, 21 April 2008


Tears fall from my heart
Unknown to my memories part
Slow the days go
Yet tears flow

The lazy smile of yours
Open unknown doors
Makes me hate the feeling
Yet my hearts beating

Watching the scene…
Wondering what could have been
Always waiting for the sun to shine
Never realizing the time was mine

Declining the existence of Mike
Letting the mind strike
The feeling of loosing the dock
While my soul was sailing through shock

-Mariyam Nina Ali-

Sunday, 16 March 2008


Dark clouds through out the sky
Wonder when the lights will come by
Marks the reality of rain
Pouring through my soul and heart

Yet heaven is in my eyes
Wishing when I will see it
Lies beyond my thoughts
Flies past my reach
Yet I fly with hope…

See the horizon so dark
meet the heavy cloud
Hear the whisper of thunder
And yet I wish for heaven in that sky…

-Mariyam Nina Ali-

Wednesday, 20 February 2008

A bit confused…

My vision blurs as I look at the horizon…
Come to think I understood life…
Never been this happy
Hooked the dreams to life
Been grateful, I came through my rough patch

Yet never understood what’s beyond my eyes
Let alone be wise to look at others….
Smile after smile makes me cry
And wonder why I pretend to be what I am not
Became what the world wanted you be
But loose your self in the process
The extend of my faith is on a test
This bit of my life confuses me
And makes me naïve

-Mariyam Nina Ali-