Hope or Desire!

A tiny Hope or desire in your heart

Unknown and hidden in your soul

May take you to places mysterious to core

Lead to haven on rainy days

And cover from burly heats of the feelings

All you need is hold on a little more

Face the current of mercy

Pace out to those who need

A touch of kindness may wary

Then its heart’s desire that you carry

Wind may blow from paths unknown

Still it comes to your way

Blowing happiness enigmatic and unforeseen

Yet pleasing a life time of hope and desire.

In this life…

How strange can life be…Weird tale it is… over few years of my life I have seen twice my age… and sometimes in a deep thought makes me feel old… I never seem to understand nor does life understand me… this I truly believe… I have lost a lot… achieved much… dreamed something, gained something else… as much as I have smiled I have cried a little more… the moments that I feel this is it; there is no more and I can’t take it anymore… I take another leap...  fallen a lot but gotten up even far more times… feared too much… but in name of courage and bravery done even much more…trusted many people and got back stabbed as much I blink… nothing seems right but at the same time everything seems fine…all those small dreams lost… but found much happier reality… Yet something always seems missing… like it’s never complete… that unknown feeling of unconscious doubt everlasting over your head. Like something else is still waiting… that unfinished thing… which seems to say that my story is still not fished I am not done… With the light I keep dreaming … dreaming with open eyes... a dream still unknown to me... But in this life... Something more is there…something I am waiting for and something waiting for me… (To be continued)
 By Nina Ali

Changing times…

Light thoughts grow heavy…

Heart seems to never worry...

Parts by parts soul become intact…

Slower the process the better it feels…

Salty sea breeze on your face…

Felt many times but never really cared to feel…

Seen it many times but never truly saw it…

Simple pleasure how wonderful it feels

Miracles come in mysterious ways...

One look, one day… nothing ever stays same…

On your conscious is how you see

One blink, the world you see changes without a flee…

 

Unknown Wish…

Sometimes, you don’t wish for things…

But that had long lingered in your mind…

It finds a way in to reality…

You lay all night long wondering

Wow how did I get so lucky is all you think…

Visualizing a dream you can’t grasp …

Seeing you from eyes of others...

Never imagining having beam of your own…

Feeling left alone…

Carping yourself all lifelong …

Deep down in your heart and mind…

You waited and wished…

To find a way out of steep thoughts       

Mysterious to its kind meaning...

Yet you had lingered that unknown wish…

Tears I can’t hold…

Letting you go was the hardest thing I ever did…

I knew you were going yet I didn’t want let go of your hand..

Never imagined my life without you…

Scariest thing was to land on my feet every time

And knowing that you will not be there to catch if I fall

I kept my word… never cried and never will

But what should I do to the tears I can’t hold...

Lord knows I tried hard…

Hours became Days and days became months...

There isn’t a moment I don’t miss you..

I still have those tears which I can’t hold…

A dream through the clouds

In my dreams I see you...

Yet don’t know if you are real

Why I can’t figure who you are,

Makes me flustered day by day

Simple whisper of you voice,

Unknown to my brain then so familiar to my heart

Train of thoughts zoom by me forever

Blooming into an untouchable desire...

Why do I wait desperately for an answer?

When this carving for one glimpse make me gasp

This desire to know takes me to fantasy circle

Where I feel like caving to my hopes

Through the clouds you come and go,

All I know is; I wait eagerly for next night

Just in the hope to see your face in my dream

Bright sky will clear the clouds and show me one peek

Wonder if you dream about me as I do...

Restless in bed wondering who I am

I marvel if you look for me in every corner

Reasoning the same thing that you’ll see me someday

Through the clouds you are a lovely dream

But just a dream which never seem to be ample

A stream of lovely thought and magic

With a drop of hope to cross the bridge of fantasy to reality

Life’s secrets. Wonders of life

   I always often wondered what the reason or secret of life is! Why people call things as wonders... Material things can be seen and touched but in process of life we never realised that in the course of seeing all these material things we are ignoring the most significant life’s truth; the nitty-gritties are the actual miracles and wonders of life. Most magnificent creation of god are the ones we use all the time and what’s happening daily. For example isn’t it a wonder or a miracle that sun rises every day and it sets every day. It’s a blessing, wonder what will happen to us when and if this process is stopped?

  Few days ago one of my best friends Shamshad Khan took one of most sensational photographs I have ever seen. Though I know she is brilliant photographer and seen most of her work. This photograph made me ruminate about these wonders of life. My first thought when I saw the picture was “sensational, how amazing can god's creation be...” . Second thought was no man made thing is as amazing as what we see around... Everywhere we go any country and place the scenery is so different yet so alike. Keeps us wondering and thinking this must be it the most beautiful/wonderful place on earth. But no everywhere, everything is made in its fullest as it should be. And our thoughts defer as we see different places and different things.

  I thought about this for many days  and came to conclusion that as we are different from each other though we are all human beings may be  for each person how they see life and how they see secret of life  or wonders is different. It took time to understand the nature of many things. It took years to know what is important in life and what not.  So in that account i realised for everyone it’s different, so I decided to make a list of seven wonders of life in my own thinking which is weird because when I finished my list (trust me I really never finished my list but forced myself to stop) I had thirteen not seven, I tried to cut some off to make it seven but couldn’t do it. So I thought why not I’ll have my list of thirteen wonders rather than seven. And again this made me wonder “wow, I got my 14^th definite wonder; changing thoughts and behaviour”. So in the end I had fourteen wonders. And I realised we can’t ever catch up with destiny or life’s secrets as its ever changing process, and that way life’s secrets can’t be grasped…

By: Nina Ali

PS: Here is my list of wonder which I came up with..

Seven wonders    By Nina Ali

1.     Birth of child

2.     Aging skin n body

3.     Image in the mirror

4.     Unconscious thoughts

5.     Changing personalities

6.     Life’s journey

7.     Death

Basic Seven Wonders of Life should be dictated as:-

1.     To be able to SEE

2.     To be able to HEAR

3.     To be able to TOUCH

4.     To be able to TASTE

5.     To be able to FEEL

6.     To be able to LAUGH

7.     To be able to LOVE

Found this written is piece of paper in one of my old journals...

Give me a holler

I have lost myself

(Don’t know) when i woke up

(Don’t know) when i slept

I will die if I be far from you

I started looking at your eyes

I started loving life

I had been fearless to death before

But now started worrying

In the first rain of the monsoon

I witnessed all my dreams at one night

Hope this life does not pass by

In only one meeting (with u!)

You be in front of me don't go

I have got to say something to u don't go

The season of love

Will not come back again

*Found this written is piece of paper in one of my old journals... I am sure I didn’t write it but it touched my heart so much wanted to share